Procrastination!

Man, what a terrible word. It adds so much stress to my life and I have been doing it for so many years. I am sitting here thinking about how the concept of being "Fit to Serve" and making changes in my life relates to procrastination and it came to me. When I have those times in my life that I can sort of have "my time" this doesn't really apply but that is not very often in my life as well as I'm sure most people's life that we have excess "my time." I'm sure you know what "my time" is. You know when you can do whatever you want and it really won't affect the state that you are in whether you are stressed or not because it is "your time?" It sort of hit me as I reflect about having children and how people say that that term doesn't exist anymore. I will seek to be the best father I can but I try to think about how am I living now that will help me be a good father in the future. This is where it hit home. I'm thinking about those times when I have to wake up at 4AM or when I get home from work or whatever I was doing that day and I go straight to the books or the computer to complete work and meet deadlines. I think about how that affects my marriage. Of course it affects the quality time that I can give my wife because I'm so focused on the deadline and getting the assigment done. It's that sense of urgency that we tend to get focused in life. But what if I could discipline myself to have the same focus even when that sense of urgency isn't there. Let's paint the picture again. I come home and I can relax and enjoy a nice conversation with my wife or go out running with her or go to the park and play tennis. That sounds nice. At least a lot nicer than the other picture I painted. Now I am going to think ahead to when I have children. What will the consequences be to my child's life if I come home and go straight to work. I'm so stressed to get something done that I go into the computer room and just start typing away not having that quality time with my child in those formative years that fathers have such an important role in. Man, that sort of scares me when I think about that. It sort of gives me a sense of urgency to get rid of this terrible habit. Even if it may be years down the road. I have to sit back and think, am I "Fit to Serve" my child by procrastinating the way I do sometimes?